-= Angel, Edvard & Alex =-


-= Edvard & Angel =-


-= Angel & Alex =-


Här får ni se bilder på oss! :-)



 

-= Bröderna På Besök =-


Mina två kära bröder har varit och hälsat
på mig nu i helgen. 

Helgen var roligt och mysigt. Vi åt en god tårta
som mina bröder hade med sig och sedan åt vi
en god vegetariskt maträtt som jag lagade med ris.
Och sedan såg vi på en film som hette Brothers en
ganska bra film.

Det blev en hel del chips och nötter och coca cola
under filmen.  ;-) Mm.. Mums!

Efter att ha sett på filmen så satte killarna
igång med spelandet.

Edvard, min bror han satt och spelade keyboard
och Alex min lille bror han satt och körde The 
Sims 3 på datorn.

Och jag? Jag var lite överallt..

Det kändes mycket bra att ha träffat och umgåtts med de, det är inte ofta man brukar umgås med varandra. Oftast när man ses så har man ju det alltid kul and that is a very good thing, right?! :-) 

Men det kändes lite sorgligt att se de fara hem idag men om 2 veckor så kommer de hit igen och hälsar på så det ska bli skoj och då har man ju iaf något att se fram emot! *ler*



See you soon my brothers!

Ibland vill jag bara sitta och
skriva massor! Jag älskar att
skriva, det hjälper mig mycket 
genom att jag skriver det jag
känner, tycker och tänker.

Oftast nog så kommer jag att
skriva på ett poetiskt sätt för
det tycker jag blir mera kul
och spännande! *ler*

Jag hoppas att mina texter har
fått er att fastna här på bloggen min.


*kram på er*

-= SUCK =-


Den här veckan har jag haft fullt upp!
*suckar djupt* Många tankar som bara
snurrar runt runt runt i mitt huvud.

Jag orkar nästan inte andas ibland för
att allting känns bara så tungt och jobbigt!
Önskade att jag kunde fly från allting eller
bara försvinna och aldrig mera komma tillbaka.

Samhället är ingenting för mig! Jag trivs inte
i denna samhälle, jag vill kunna vara fri från 
allt! Bara slappna av och låta tiden falla på sin
egen takt.. 

Jag känner mig så grått och kall inombords..
Vi är som väder vi människor.
 
Sol, regn och storm... 

-= Nightmare =-


I’ve got bad dreams when I sleep,
I’ve got bad dreams in my dreams.
I got trapped in my nightmare no
where to go out and no place to hide..

Every road I walk on
I see a red eye staring at me
and I can hear a sharp voice 
that whispers my name.

" Angel,  I'll be watching you
In your nightmares "

I'm scared.. I want to run and hide
but I can't, I just can't!

And its killing me softly..

Straight up from the bed the eyes
are wide open. The tears stream down
the cheeks and the hands hold tight in
the sheats..

And I keep wondering my self why I have nightmares when I
am asleep? I just can't understand
all these things going on in my dreams.

Its pretty bad! 

I hate having nightmares because
I feel pretty bad and sad afterwards..

*Yawn*


Today at school I was so tired..
I just wanted to go to bed and sleep
like a newborn baby.. 

(-.-) Zzzz.. I was falling asleep almost
all the time.. *yawn* and then when
the school was finished I went home to
my mom, just to visit them and give my late
christmas presents to my two brothers, it was
fun! It was good to see them again! =)

After visiting my family I took the buss and went
home, tired.. Yes, i was very tired that I almost 
forgot my backpack on the bus! Ò.ó but luckily I
managed to look beside me and there, I saw my 
backpack and grabbed it!

*phew* that was close!

P.S.

- Always look beside you before stepping out from a
bus, car or something else. You maybe may not see
your important stuff again. So, look beside you!

It always fascinated me how people go from loving you madly to nothing at all, nothing!

-= Lost In Daydreams =-


I’m lost in time, nowhere to go
Lost In Daydreams

mind is a crime..

Flee from reality, just flee from our time
I wanna do it, I’ll do it now..

Let’s dream away
Oh, daydreams
Let me dream away
Be lost in daydreams!

I go into a world, my hiding place
where I have control..

So let’s see, if you can come with me
into a world, where we have control..

Don’t wake me up, I’ve just dreamt
that I am happier, I need you my friend.

Let’s dream away
Oh, daydreams
Let us dream away
Be lost in our daydreams!

-= The (no) One =-


I was like a star
Lonely floating in darkness
Sending light out far
But noone ever noticed

All throughout my life
Trapped in a prison
The prison which has no key
Always in.. misery

I close my eyes in tears
And imagined how it would be
To get rid of all these fears
That has followed me

All throughout my life
I always where The (no) One
That noone would want to know
I am all alone..

-= Weakness Of Mankind =-

I have never felt for mankind like i do now.

And the thought make me wanne cry cause

its all so simple. We’re all looking for the same thing,

we’re all so vunerable, so weak..

It’s kind of sad that all living creatures wants this thing called LOVE.

But do we all get it?

From monster to non-monster, from the beauty to the beast,

from young to old, we all want the same thing.

That makes me so sad cause i know there are so many
people out there wich dosen’t have anyone to share it with.

I know how that feels.. 

Well i give up therefor i surrender, i fall like an fallen Angel!

-= Hidden Feelings =-

Lonley walking in the darkest night
desperate searching for a sign of light..

Around the corners the emptyness shows
there’s no one around, there’s no one
who knows..

I seem carefree, lucky and satisfied but
no one can see those emotions I hide..

All I see it’s a sad, endless story
Set me free from this constant worry..

In the deep of my soul there are fear
and confusion a black, growing hole
with depressive illusions..

The feelings are hidden so deep down
there strictly forbidden to face the air..

-= Lost In The Dark =-

I’m lost... lost inside an unfamiliar
world where the people looks the same.

I don’t know how I got here, but I know
I wasn’t meant to be in this place.
Can’t find rest, can’t find peace.

I dont know what to do?
Dont know what to say?
I find Myself Asking.


What is really meant for me?

Do I have a plan?

Do I have a purpose?

Does anyone?


I’ve got so many questions to be answerd.
So what’s the point of all this?


”Cant there be another way”

But I dont hear an answer.

So now I´m going blind.

All this pain and longing.

All this waiting.

Is it worth it?

Or am I just lost.

Lost in the dark.

-= My Tears, My Sadness Inside =-

I swallow every little tear
Pretending I don’t care
‘Cause if there’s something I fear
It is for someone to see my tear. 

I swallow the sadness in me
I swallow it so no one can see. 
I don’t want anybody to say:
“Oh you cry, so do we” Cause 
my sadness is only for me. 

Not anyone sees my broken heart.
Just the devils sees my tears in the dark. 

-= The Pain Inside =-

Here it comes again,
Pain, Pain, Pain. *sigh*

As soon as I awake,
my heart begins to ache.

Like a dark and stormy sea,
the sadness begins to smother me.

I try to fight it, not to give in,
after all it wasn’t my sin.

If I try the best to ignore the sorrow,
maybe the pain will be gone tomorrow.

I put on the face that has served me well,
it hides, the secrets I could never tell.

Used, broken and saddened,
always feeling so abandoned.

Inside my mind my thoughts are spinning,
they’re spinning out of control.

Why can’t they understand what I’m feeling?
They don’t understand at all.

They look at me and think that everything is fine,
like everything is as it should be.

But they don’t see this pain of mine.

This is not me! Oh why, can’t I make myself see,
the wrong wasn’t done by me. I didn’t wish this
kind of life! :-(